Oh What a Monday

Jaden has been endlessly sick for weeks now. We've gone from cold to flu to cold and now to intense virus. This morning he broke out in an intense rash that looked like hives to me. We decided to bring him in to the doctors, the whole time I kept thinking the doctor would just send us home and tell me to watch him. Instead I left the doctors office with a subscription for an intense antibiotic and another doctors appointment on Wednesday. Jaden has a really serious virus that could damage his heart or lungs. So why did they send him home. I'm sure if it was really serious we would have been told to go to the hospital but now I'm sitting at home with a very sick baby terrified I'm going to miss a new symptom and he'll be hurt.

Trust.

My sister is getting married next week. I still haven't bought Jaden dress shoes or checked to make sure his suit still fits.

My house is a disaster. DISASTER. and we have to pick up some of my family from the airport Tuesday night and they are staying with us for a few nights. MY house is a Disaster.

And I know that no one is going to care so I need to stop caring .

But I do need to trust.