Learning to be Home

I am learning how to be a stay-at-home mom. It seems a bit ridiculous. I would have thought that it would be the easiest thing in the world to be home. I would have lots of time to clean the house, make meals, play with Jaden, visit with friends, etc. I’m struggling with balance:

I’m bored when I’m home so I am always trying to think of reasons to leave the house but I also feel like I’m constantly driving places and I’m a bit sick of it. With the play dates, bible study, and music class I’m teaching I think I’m even more busy then I was when I was working. I’m not sure if this is a good thing or a bad thing yet.

You can only clean the house so many times before you start to go crazy. It’s a constant battle to keep my house in some kind of order and I’m constantly picking up.

I have a lot of things I would love to be doing, like working on the basement and getting it ready to finish, scrapbooking, painting the second floor hall and bathroom, but all of these things require time without having a monster underfoot. BUT I also have to remind myself that I’m staying home with Jaden to BE WITH Jaden. It’s a good lesson in dying to myself and living for Christ. I am not the centre of my world.

I’m now even more aware of our finances, always watching our bills, our account, our bills. God continues to be faithful in such visible ways. Pete just got a promotion and the raise that came with it makes up for the income I’m not bringing in.

My faith has stagnated; I haven’t grown or been challenge for a long time. Realizing this has made me sad and challenged me to get out and do something about it. I’m excited to find balance in my life in this area, because once I’m balanced here and growing, the rest, all my priorities, choices, purchases, everything, will fall into place. I’m excited to have the time to be a part of a bible study now!