Tomorrow

My doctor's appointment is booked for tomorrow afternoon. They didn't have my results yet but if I didn't book something I would go crazy all day waiting for the Dr.'s office to call today. This way I can leave the house. This reminds me of our adoption. Paralzyed with fear, lacking an appetite, lacking any desire to do anything all , all the while knowing that my only hope comes from God. But telling your self that is one thing. Believing it and acting it is another thing. So, My random prayer: I am fearfully and wonderfully created by You. You created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I am yours Created to worship You. Awesome and Holy are you. I cry out. If I am fearfully and wonderfully made then why am I falling apart? Why can't I be comforted by your words? Trust. How I envy those who got to see you when you walked this earth. How much easier trust must have been for them when they saw you with holes in your hands. Help me to step out into faith and trust.