Too much

I should be working on either my report cards or the AQ (additional Qualification) course on Autism right now. But I'm typing this instead. It's too late for my brain to read through scientific studies and make notes, and I'm not in the mood to try to see the bright side of my floundering students. Don't get me wrong, We've had lots of successes this term, but I'm just not seeing roses through all of the thorns. I'm feeling very over worked and under paid in life today.

My poor husband has a slipped disk in his back pushing in a nerve and causing him great deepening pain for the past two months. He has missed the last two weeks of work and will most likely miss next week too unless God gives me the miracle I've been praying for for two months now.

Jaden has had the flu for a week, then a cold, and now it's either the flu back or a worsening of his cold. I've started him on his puffers, it sounds like asthma, I've been pretending the doctor got it wrong last November but he's weezy again. And now I have to drive to KW for a 20 mintues Dr's appointment with his pediatrician on Tuesday. It's just a check up to see if he's growing properly .. he is, my back is killing me.

I am running around bringing water and ice, meals, books, diapers, everything up and down the stairs, all the while thinking and complaining in my head. I've about reached the point where I'm going ot snap and say something mean ( I already confessed this to my husband). I know it's no ones fault, that I need to have compassion and serve with love but I'm exhausted which makes me more suceptable to evil.

I can do EVERYTHING through CHRIST who gives me strength. Powerful words. Everything right now feels like it is going to swallow me up. Why don't I live closer to my parents, or Pete's parents? I've learned my lesson.